you want him, and you need him
but you act like he's not there.
yeah you know that you're hollow.
and something's missing here

why don't you break the cycle,
let love in.
-Hunger by Fireflight

He's not going to give up. God passionately loves you and desperately craves a relationship with you. He needs you like the air you breathe. did you catch that? God NEEDS you. you've built up walls to try and keep everyone out, especially him. what are you afraid of? caring? caring about something, someone so immensely that you can feel it in your very being? because that's what you'll get. you'll get love that surpasses all understanding, you'll get someone you can depend on. someone who comes running the moment you call, a comforter, a lover, a friend. you'll fill that piece that's missing. and i know it is. we were created to love him. and you can't tell me that you don't feel it. it doesn't matter how long it takes, God is going to fight for you. and one day, that wall will break. trust me i know. it will come crashing down at the force of something so small, you won't be able to take it anymore, you'll want to give up. one crack like that and God is going to come rushing in, filling your every crack and crevice, every whole, He will completely drown you in love. and you'll grasp something worth living for, something worth dieing for. you'll embrace a love that you were meant to share since the begining. and it will be beautiful.

i am with you always, even to the end of the age. -matthew 28:20


truth. i myself have become one of the many searching so desperately for love, i don't nessecarily mean the relationship kind of love, just love in general. but an intense kind of love, unconditional, life altering, nonsensical love. my search has left me both hopeless and desperate, and hurt. i've been looking so hard to find something tangable to fill a void i myself created.

and then i woke up.

why i've been hunting so desperately for something that already belongs to me, i have no idea.
but out of my trials i leave you with this thought...

you ALREADY have the love that you desire.
it already belongs to you, you just have to open your eyes and see it, open your heart and feel it.
Your father ADORES you, DELIGHTS in you, gave EVERYTHING for you.
he NEVER leaves your side and He sees you PERFECTLY.

you are truly loved my friend,
and not just by me ;]

I can't count the times I've cried for you,
You who are restless and broken.
We all just want to feel.
Self medicated lullabies and self induced hysteria,
I hold you in my heart in a place I had saved for understanding.
With bloodshot eyes I feel you,
Though our decisions different and our mind sets changed I want the best this world has to offer for you.
I'd give anything to see you smile again.
I ache knowing I can't give that to you.
I will sing and love and reach out to this world more than they will let me.
If you could only see the truth.
God and I love you.

Can you hear him in the silence?
Like the rain he cries for you
And you're pain brings him to his knee's.
Anything for a second of your time this isn't what he expected.
You were made for him.
So turn your face to the sun child,
Open your eyes and feel something that is real.
Run until you lose your breath, run to him.
He is waiting.

I can't count the times I've cried for you,
You who are angry and befuddled.
The answers aren't ever what you needed.
Life's become less of a treasure and more of a game,
A duty that you can't be relieved of.
You blame everything in sight and with sharp features and wounded pride you scream.
Scream until your lungs give out and every window in this place is shattered.
Begging someone to listen, anyone to hear you.

Can you hear him in the silence?
Like the rain he cries for you
And you're pain brings him to his knee's.
Anything for a second of your time this isn't what he expected.
You were made for him.
So turn your face to the sun child,
Open your eyes and feel something that is real.
Run until you lose your breath, run to him.
He is waiting.

Give your broken chest to the carpenter; let your father kiss your wounds.
You've been called to greatness will you rise or will you fall?

Can you hear him in the silence?
Like the rain he cries for you
And you're pain brings him to his knee's.
Anything for a second of your time this isn't what he expected.
You were made for him.
So turn your face to the sun child,
Open your eyes and feel something that is real.
Run until you lose your breath run to him.
He is waiting.

"i've got a little more faith than the world has doubt" -<3

at the risk of you thinking i'm stupid i have something to say, so please please finish reading this.

i know so many people who are hurting. Who are so wounded that it hurts to get out and bed in the morning and face the day and it breaks my heart. I would love nothing more than to hold you all in my arms and shield you from the pain... But my arms just aren't big enough and as much as i wish i was i'm just not strong enough. I know someone who is. I know someone who can turn your pain into joy and your tears into laughter, don't you want that? god. Your father. Jesus. Your savior. if you will just turn your face to him and feel the sunshine. His is a love like no other and a forgiveness that is so undeserveing. He is the one person who will never hurt you, never leave you, never lie to you, never make you feel like you aren't good enough, he is never angry and he always wants to hold you when you cry. If you feel alone call on him. He is always waiting. I do my best to keep my promises and i promise you your life will never be the same. Whether your finding god for the first time or just getting back in touch, he loves you more than you can ever imagine, and he's waiting.

woman

i am a princess.
daughter of Eloi,
daughter of Jehovah.
my father is THE king of kings,
and the world will not defeat me.

i am strong and gentle.
i am fierce and compassionate.
i am merciful and beautiful.

i am a beloved child.
i am hands and feet.
i am an important part of the bride,
i know the truth, the way, and the life personally.

i am not independent,
but rather i am solely dependent on God.

i am "blessed beyond measures"
and have "peace that surpasses understanding"

i am eve.
i am the crown of creation.
i am woman.